van goh restless

I hate having restless nights. Most of the times it’s because I either drank too  much coffee before bed (a habit) or went to bed earlier than I normally do. There are some nights, however, that my mind is racing. I can’t turn it off. Usually it’s from anxiety over some issue: a family member’s salvation, work, bills, state of the world, etc. For some, it can be due to a lonely heart, illness, or like me, sometimes just the desire to leave, go on an adventure, and live life as it should be rather than simply working to live. Sometimes, I’m depressed enough to cause me to toss and turn and spend the night on the couch. On these nights, I tend to feel unfulfilled whether it be at work or just life in general. These are the nights that I wish I could just drop everything and leave  to somewhere new (But is this just running away from a real problem, or is it just a desire for a sense of adventure?).  Life is hard. For many, it is harder. And I’ve noticed that sometimes there isn’t a good reason for feeling depressed and other times, there are more reasons than any  man should ever have. 

Van Gogh obviously had issues. As the gif of him illustrates above, I could picture him having many restless nights that ultimately accumulated into him taking his life. It makes me wonder how many people go through such nights. Is it my coworker? My friend or family member? The cashier at the grocery store? We all have issues that steal away our rest and our joy from time to time. This is why I think it is important to try to be kind to everyone, regardless of how they treat us. Just pray for them. It’s definitely not easy, but just by offering a prayer and a smile, you just might be saving a life.

When I can’t sleep, I tend to go to the couch and play some background music (instrumental). It’s like a lullaby. King Saul and David each needed lullabies to help them through their depression/issues at time. It isn’t just for children.

Some people stay up and read. Others draw and write in a journal or diary to get their thoughts out on paper and away from their mind. Regardless, I feel it is important to have a way to cope with the restless nights, for our sanity’s sake.

Have you ever had a restless night? Why? And what do you do to help you sleep.